My life as blind

I was over weight. I was depressed and constantly comfort eating. It was not healthy or felt good to be too big. I constantly made excuses for why I didn’t need to stop eating.  One day, Thursdag January 12th 2017 I woke up and just decided to lose weight by going on a diet. I chose a calory intake I would do daily. I did not consult anyone. When I told people they all said it sounded unhealthy to eat so little. So after 20 days I went to the doctor to check if it was okay. He told me it was fine for 2-3 months. He also checked my weight. I decided to lose 30kg.  After 3 months I sat a new calory border and went on with my diet. In 41 weeks I lost 28kg. I try to eat healthy food, but if I want something unhealthy I allow myself to eat it. The only thing is I eat less. I weigh everything I eat and write down what, when and how many calories I eat. I try to eat once every three hours, so six meals a day. The first three weeks after I checked my weight I lost 5kg, so I think

I’m a sensitive person. I’m not afraid to cry. I avoid fighting, unless I’m fighting for people I care about. I can be an intense person. I fall in love fast. I can be shy in certain situations. I can become angry. I struggle with anxiety and depression. I am not perfect - I am me.  We are all different. Love eachother!

I was bullied. All through all 10 years of elementary school and all through high school. I was bullied by the cool kids, my friends and the other kids. I was bullied because I was a nerd,my red hair, freckles, my taste of music, the fact I was unable to roll the r’s when speeking. I was not an athletic kid and I was not good at the creative subjects. I was also bullied for being diabetic and when I started losing my sight I was bullied for this as well. Ever since I was a young kid I have had thoughts about death. I was not sure if my life was worth living. I was bullied at school, in my spare time and when the internet was getting common I was bullied there as well. It got so bad we went to the police with links, pictures and pages, all of hurtfull, bullying comments. We never heard anything from the police. This made me question if I had any worth in the world. I thought to myself «The police helps people that’s worth something, so I’m not. I started eating to not feel sad.

Yesterday was a great day! It started with me waking up after nine hours of sleep! I struggle with sleep deprivation so nine hours were both shocking and heavenly! I felt rested and optimistic. I was prepared for a good day even though I was going to the hospital to get a new insuline pump and being taught how to use it. I ate breakfast, did a hundred sidekicks and jumped in the shower. The taxi that was going to bring me to the hospital was on time and it was a nice driver. I arrived at the hospital thinking it would be boring to be there for four hours, but I’d try to make the best of it. The woman who was teaching me was really nice and had a good sense of humour. She had never tried teaching it to someone who could not see the screen, but she did an amazing job! We were finished already after 1 hour and 45 minutes! I was really happy it was over that quick! I wanted to get home! The ride home was easy and I was happy when I got back home! The first thing I did when I got h

This is a common question. It’s easy to answer by just saying «Fine» or something like that. You shouldn’t ask this question if you»43 not interested in hearing how the person actually is. If you are sad or depressed it’s not always easy to tell the trutg. I know with myself that I am often scared of tekkubg the truth because of how the person might react. If it is a person who say he/she really wants to know and cares about you, you should try to be as open and honest as possible. It might even feel good to tell someone. There are people who care about you, even if you do not believe so. I can tell you honestly that I care about you. I do not know who you are, but I care. I know how it can be to struggle with depression. No depression is the same, but I care @ great deal. I have struggled with depression in the past, and I still do. One of the thins that happens to me is sleep deprivation. I don»5 get much sleep. This does not help either the body or the mind. The body has le

t’s important. Having something to do so your days does not feel empty. Empty days can quickly result in feeling empty and depression. It’s a terrible feeling. It’s not important what you do as long as it’s something that makes sense to you. Earlier I’ve either had school or the privilege to work with Martial Arts and self-defence for people with sifferent disabilities. Now these things are gone. I finished school and the work I did seems to have dried up. This is scary and makes me apathetic. I’m still lucky to have some friends and family around the country and world, but my depression seems to have taken hpød in me. I try to find something to do. I have Martial Art, nut do to my legs and knee that have gone bad I can’t practice. I spend much time listening to music and watching movies and series, but it would be nice to have something that feels like a plan.  My friends help me a lot. Talking to them about what I think and what they think helps me. If they struggle with